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Well, I got a talking to last night at my job. The store manager and the assistant manager sat down with me and brought the fact that I have communication problems. And, it's the thing that's holding me back. They also showed me some paperwork that was written up for me back in 1999 and they said that the final warning that was given back then is still in effect. In other words if I dont shape up they will ship me out. I asked them, Why don't you just get rid of me if I'm so bad? And, their response was that they knew I was good in my job, I just had some bad sides. They eventually gave me a list of recent incidents, which I read through and made corrections, and had them laughing as I got up to go. The meeting lasted a little over an hour and a half, and I felt like I was 12 when it started, but by the end of it I was the 36 year old that knows how to manipulate people to his every whim. I swear sometimes I think that people owe me things. One of the things I got spoken to about, was my overuse of the word Stupid. Is it my fault, if I want everyone to be as intelligent with things I know? Ok, I'll shut up and put up the list. Recent Incidents: [please note, that this is written exactly as it was written on the paper given to me.] April 18-Incident with ASM Carrie where Joe used inappropriate language on the salesfloor. Joe was told to finish his project before completing his shift. Joe was still doing zone maintenance 10 minutes before his shift was over. Joe expected to sort his books off his V-cart the following morning. Carrie stressed that our main priority in the mornings is to shelve. Joe needs to comlete his project at least 30 minutes before the end of his shift to have time to sort the due-out books. Joe's response to Carrie's request and direction was unfavorable and not comminicated in the spirit of teamwork and cooperation. Joe began to communicate negatively, loudly and inappropriately within earshot of customers on the salesfloor. OK, in my defense I told them that I am better at my job than most, and I was able to sort the books from my V-cart in the 10 mins left. Also, it had never been stated to me that I needed to clean up 30 mins before I left. And, that if Carries was so concerned with teamwork and cooperation, why didn't she offer to help me clean up because I was leaving in 10 mins. It was also explained to me that she handled the situation incorrectly. Oh, and the innappropriate language was me saying, "So, you going to write me up?" and when she continued harping I said as I was walking into the stockroom, "You going to fire me Carrie?"
April 28-Joe's inappropriate conduct on salesfloor. Carrie observed Joe bac in the Children's area talking with Lead Bookseller Alison. Carrie asked what Joe was doing. Joe said he was on his first break. Joe did not request a break with any Manager-On-Duty. The store hadn't opened yet, it was like 8:30 and Malcolm the other manager had been back there too, I was showing this new book to them. And, then I got caught by AngerWoman and I snapped at her. BUFFY BREAK - Taped episode, and I hate that Willow and Tara are breaking up. I love them... oh shit... That Glory bitch! AHHH
April 30- Joe's inappropriate comments to a customer about another bookseller's work performance. Joe approached ASM Malcolm about a book he found misshelved in his section. Joe asked Malcolm which bookseller possibly misshelved the book. Malcolm responded that it was possibly new hire bookseller Ani and to give her some time to grasp responsibilities. Joe was upset about the situation and he exhibits this frustration in a negative, loud manner. shortly, thereafter Malcolm hears Joe remarking this incident to a customer. Malolm told Joe not to say such remarks to a customer, let alone other booksellers in a tone and manner thaat do not convey cooperation and teamwork. Ok, I look... i found a book shelved correctly under the last name of the title. As though the author's name was Chesapeake Song and the title of the book was Brenda Lynn Richardson. I can understand that people are new, but it's common sense. I laughed when I found the book, and the customer turned around. She laughed and said yeah, she works in a bookstore too, and she understands. I didnt mention names to the customer. This makes me out to be a ruthless person, making fun of people and laughing at their stupidity. I wont even bother with the last one, because this has taken me a lifetime to write, and now I have to get ready to go to work. I asked if I had like a grace period. Like if I came into work today and called someone stupid would I get fired and they said no. So, I have to go deal with the stupid managers. GOD I HATE CARRIE!!!!
Well, I'm about to ride to work... I look like a total tourist dork. Shorts with these really white legs, with rosey kneecaps. From all my time on my knees, and don't be thinking naughty thoughts. It's because I'm always kneeling at work... shelving. I took three 25mgs tablets of Zoloft, because it's seems to get me through the day. I was cleaning out my drawer the other day and I found an old bottle with some samples this one doctor gave me a while ago. To tell you the truth I don't know if they are still actually effective, but they give me peace of mind. the green ones are smaller and I think they are 25mgs and the blue ones are bigger and are 50 mgs. I use to take one of the blue and 2 of the green. I took three green, because the third one fell in my palm before I popped em in my mouth. And, better to take than to throw away. Ok, so that's my obsessive side talking. One last thing... am almost finished reading The Vagina Monologues, and I have to tell you... being a man is nothing compared to you women and your vaginas. :::grins::: If you haven't gotten a chance to see this play, then pick up the book and learn more than you ever thought you would about vaginas... and their uses and feel and taste and sound and pleasure and, well... just do it.
I keep getting these weird emails from someplace... from you@yourdomain.com which comes back as not a real email address, when I look at the properties it says webmaster@extropia.com the weird thing is sometimes they say things like testing. another one said ghjhg and the first one said fuck. I tried to email them back, but I have no idea what this means... anyone? anyone? Bueller?
I was broken again
Her fingers groped again
His teeth bit my tongue again
I've had this thing weighing heavily on my mind. See, I was all excited that I was a near complete match with someone for a bone marrow transplant. I wanted to do something selfless for a change, when in fact what I was doing was just as selfish as everything else I have done in my life. So, I went and had the blood removed, so they could do further testing, and I lied on the damn questionairre. Am, I the only person who has ever lied on something like that before? I don't think so, but as I sit here and as Ive thought it over, I should stop it. I mean, it's really fucked, you know? And, Butch if you are reading this, I would really appreciate you not telling your mom what I'm about to say here. So, the question was: If you are male, Since 1977, have you ever had sex with another man? And, I answered no. I mean, when it comes down to the nitty gritty, according to Bill Clinton I havent had sex. But, they weren't more specific, and I really have. I have. There. Now, I have to find a way to talk to the damn bone marrow people and tell them to take my name off the list, because apparently, even though I am hiv negative, and have never tested positive for any STD's according to their criteria I am a risk. Fuck, I hate that I lied. I'm really sorry if I got everyone's hopes up for me being a compassionate and selfless human being, but that's just what I am, a human being. With flaws and lies and mistakes.
Ok, I discovered Anime... Well, I don't know if you can call it discovering, I mean I knew it was there. I saw Ghost in the Machine when it was released. But, man... I just saw Akira, and damn it's great. Oh, and I've seen Princess Mononoke, but this was amazing... There are so many that I want to see, but my crappy video store doesnt carry anything. I might have to go to Tower Records tonight and buy Fushugi Yugi. We carry the graphic novels, but I just can't read them as much as I can when I watch them. Oh, and there is this really good graphic novel called Parasyte, would love to see if thats available as a movie. Ok, I'm about to watch Aeon Flux. Thought, I'd have a little fun before having to deal with the freaks of west covina customer base.
I am confused by the release of all these seemingly period piece movies with modern day music. Has anyone seen the trailer for A Knight's Tale? I mean, they play "We Will Rock You" during it. And, it's filmed medieval. I still want to see Moulin Rouge, just because it's got such yummy people in it, and I still want to see A Knight's Tale because it's got such yummy people in it. Ok, Im a tad obsessed with yummy....
been a good day, just saw Bridget Jones' Diary and watching the best movie. The Contender. Joan Allen is a goddess in my opinion. I have a great night of movies lined up, especially since my night fell through. So, I have The Contender, Charlie's Angels, Aeon Flux and Akira.
oh somethine else... if you've seen the musical, I think that they sorta made Mary Magdalene, Jesus and Judas sorta like a threesome. Well, I remember a book called Our Lady of Babalyon, by John Rechey, about the three of them as a triple... a love triangle. ok, now, we all know Im already going to hell... so tell me what you think on that too. ok, bye really.
i havent left yet... realized I was leaving really early, so I sat down and watched Jesus Christ Superstar again, and I really love it. But, dang is it just me or was it really unfair what happend to Judas? Someone email me or sign my guestbook or something and tell me what you think. Ok, I am now leaving.
Well, today is proving to be an interesting day. ok, so men can only be rated for a maximum number of votes, how wrong is that? I suppose, I should be happy with my measly 5.7 rating. It's far better than that one chick who after 2000 votes was rated at a 1.2. Let's see, I am about to ride my bike all over the west covina and covina area. Have to stop off at Sav-On for something, but I'm not gonna say, because well someone might be reading and they might tell someone and then that person might tell someone else. So, I still need to be careful about what I say here. Someday, I promise I'll get an ultra private place to tell you all the seedy facts about me. Then it's off to the Red Cross, where I'll get blood drawn to see if I am a compatible bone marrow doner to this guy who needs it. Something like we match with platelets or something and now they want to make sure the cells match. I'm not certain. All I know is, if I can help someone live a little longer, I'm all for it. I mean, why else are we even here? Maybe that's why I've been living this long, so that I can help this 53 year young guy to live to see his 60th birthday? oh and then it's on to work... the horrible 3-12 shift, but they know im gonna be a little late. Perhaps, there will be something horrible happening there and I can tell you all about it. See ya
Well I did it... yes, you know it. I actually put a picture up on hotornot.com So, be honest, but nice... okie? God, I'm such a dork.
I'm drained. Watched Jesus Christ Superstar twice today. I was sitting upstairs reading the last 8 pages of the latest Dennis Lehane book. I love this author, didn't read him for the longest time because I thought he was Tim LeHaye of those ultra christian Left Behind books. I never read them, because A) thought they were sorta stupid and B) thought my hands might burn while holding it. I heard the distinct sound of the UPS truck rumbling through my condo complex, ran out on the patio and saw it stop in front of my unit. WooHoo... My JCS(that's what the followers call it) was placed on my doorstep. Watched it, then rewound and watched it again. Got so into it, that I even found a website with the lyrics on it, so I could sing along. It's ok, I know I am a total dork. But, I have to tell you this is really the best damn show out there. For all you other musical dorks out there, you have to check out The Really Useful Group And, now here I am, watching the TV show that was rated at having the oldest audience base. 58.6, yes... I am watching Diagnosis Murder. But, if it's any consolation to the fact that I watch the oldest show, I also love the show that has the youngest audience base of 22.3. And that show is Popular. |