Saturday, June 16, 2001 08:49 p.m.
Listening to: Moulin Rouge
Damn, I'm tired as hell. Have spent the last three days putting together new furniture in my room. A new computer desk, a new bookcase and a new entertainment unit.
All of which had to be screwed and bolted and nailed together. hell the furniture in my room as been screwed more than I have.
I've got so much to do still and am sooo exhausted that I just want to shut everything off and go to sleep.
Tuesday, June 12, 2001 06:54 p.m.
Quote of the day: However deviant my vices may be, I always hold them worthy of respect because one is not master of them.
Well, I have just finished watching a wonderful, although unhistorically correct, movie. Quills is everything I wanted it to be and so much more. I must explain that I have this thing for the Marquis de Sade, I mean I finished 120 days of Sodom at a church retreat.
I am a four thousand nine hundred and sixaire today. Woohoo... the 401k came through. And, what did I do? Went out and spent some of it. Bought a bigger tv, the scars of velious expansion to everquest, clothes and fathers day gift. It feels good to be able to pay for things and not feel poor.
Still not sure what I'm gonna do about work. Seriously thinking of going back to school. Looking at devry and itt-tech. I will get back to you on this.
ok, off to finish pitch black although, I'm thinking I might want to watch it much later tonight. It's rather nerve racking.
Monday, June 11, 2001 11:37 a.m.
What I'm reading: A Series of Unfortunate Events: Book the First - The Bad Beginning
What I'm hearing: The Morning Becomes Eclectic
This is for Violaine because she says I need to update more. Well, just rode my bike, got out of the friggen house for a change and actually did some exercise. I've still not looked for a job, but took the first step in discovering how much I owe in the realm of ticketland. Like I told the woman who is looking into them, I think I am more afraid that I wont have the money to completely pay them off than I am of finding a job. Because once they are paid off, I can get my liscense back and then a car and a job will fall in place.
slowly selling books, I have an idea lined up on how to sell more, but I wont be doing it until I change servers for bastardgenres.
and on a political note, I have no idea how I feel about the execution of that timothy guy. I know his last name, just dont remember how to spell it. I can tell you that I think he's kinda cute, sad to see a guy like that killed. Hell, sad to see that a cute guy like that had to kill all those people.
Ok, I don't know where that came from.
Sunday, June 10, 2001 09:02 p.m.
ok, so today was duplicate sunday. Saw Moulin Rouge for the second time, loved it as much the second time as I did the first, except for the idiot who's phone went off three times. The first time I saw it the theater had 10 people in it, and one left. Today, people kept coming in while it was starting, and about 7 people left. I swear, if you go to see the movie, give the beginning a chance... after the virgin sequence... ahh, hell... every sequence is great.
Then we snuck into A Knight's Tale. The best part was, we got there in time for the Harry Potter preview. Oh, man... I so can't wait. oh, and A Knight's Tale was as good the third time as it was the second. And, a hint. Stay all the way through the end credits. You'll love it.
And, now... I'm not online because I'm playing the goddamn game, I'm watching Touched By an Angel.
Monday, May 28, 2001 11:35 p.m.
Well it's been a hell of a long time hasn't it?
I have been doing many things lately, and it hasn't been working. Yes, gang... the cat is out of the bag, I was fired. I haven't been around because I have immersed myself in the goddamn game. And, mostly ignored the fact that I need to look for a job. Hell, it's been forever since I have had to do that, and I don't want retail again. So, temp agencies here I come.
Also, if anyone still reads this and any of you work in the webdesign or computer field, could you email me and give me some tips on what and how I could begin looking for work?
Ok, that's it for now, and I am on my way back to the game, it's important because my druid Duana, is starting baking school today...:::cheers:::
Tuesday, May 15, 2001 07:58 p.m.
it's not official, because I dont have the cash in my hand. But, they did call and tell me to come into work at 7 instead of 11, so that I can leave without causing a scene.
I am working on a resume right now, and decided that tomorrow, I'll just go in... take care of the paperwork, step into starbucks, get a coffee and a newspaper and start looking for work.
Cut my hair, shaved the stupid fuzz on my face and will view this as a new experience. ::laughs:: damn, and my staff rec was selling so well.
Tuesday, May 15, 2001 12:33 p.m.
I've been on a long journey to the middle. Well gang, I was suspended today with pay, which leads me to believe that I'm gonna get fired tomorrow. Hmm... anger management, something I need. Especially since they think I'm gonna go postal on em, ok... so I told them if I had a gun I might have done it, but I also added that it wasn't worth going to jail for killing them.
wrote this today, after I found out the bad news...
Anger - postal - Hatred
pain - Agony - loss
Shit - Fucked - period
end - Final - suspension
Floating - bugs biting
last. - Scared - Scarred
broken, again. Search
fastened upon, clenched
biten, devoured lost
alone, frightened, perished.
error drugged misery
trapped laten feelings.
death desired destroyed
A true expiration.
Tuesday, May 8, 2001 08:00 p.m.
Listening to:
Stereolab's Emperor Tomato Ketchup
Trying to write, sometimes it just doesn't come, although I've watched two great movies about writers. Well, at least I watched them from the writer's perspective, they were probably about so much more. Anyway, I highly recommend Almost Famous and The Wonder Boys. So, here's what I have... grrr
The meditation began and we stood there sliding our fingertips over the body. Over downy arms, between thin thighs, along bony hips. His uncertainties, the thought that he was still in control invading the final pockets of his brain. I can’t describe the feeling of connection, but have you ever sat alone after a shower, and slowly slid the tips of your fingers across your body? The rough contact of the pads of your fingertips meeting the soft soap cleaned skin, touching your body the way you dream a lover will, but never does.
Monday, May 7, 2001 09:46 a.m.
I've been reading a most interesting collection of essays called PoMoSexuals. It's not so much about how we have to be homosexual, lesbian, bisexual or even heterosexual, but how we should open our eyes to differnt levels. It's really hard to explain. Unless you are in the place where I am, you might never experience it.
I laughed when I read Like a Virgin by John Weir. I mean, hell this man was me even down to the same astrological sign. So, who knows... maybe I'll do just what he did.
I suppose part of this book has made more sense, because well I'm playing a chick on EQ, and I had a guy sorta fall for her last night. I felt guilty telling him that I was a guy, but he laughed and said his wife felt better now. Oh, man I am a sick fuck. But, if any of you who read this actually play EverCrack, holler for me. I am Chyseis, Ranger of the 10th season on the Nameless server. (aside from being a sick fuck, I am also a big dork.)
Anyway, I am in search of something good to read, something fiction or any of the genres. I can't tell you how many romances I shelve, that I have actually read the first few pages. ok, this has turned into overuse of my verbal skills. So, I'm gonna go to the garage and find more books to send out. Talk to everyone later.
